I have not read the book but I will borrow it from the library this week. Sounds pretty cool from what you guys say but let me just share my story.
From day one my heart has always been broken by guys. They might be really obsessed with me in the beginning and treated me like a princess and like their world was gonna end without having me but wow, they always end up leaving me, tore apart, screwed, like for real screwed over, they cheated on me, they played with my feelings for the s*** of it, left me with no warning, I was raped, violated, or sometimes its just this s*** life, it wanted to see me dead. So, as that kept happening I then began to think that this life or love is not real but before that belief, I was always this girl who had high hopes for love and never stopped praying for it to happen, I believed in love strongly, in God, I went to church every sunday, literally, there was no sunday I missed. LOL I believed one day i'll meet the right one, that someone will love me for me, for who I am. But that day seemed like its never gonna come, I kept giving people chances but they just always seem to hurt me, I almost thought I was one of those Princess who turns Princes into frogs like for real. Then one day I was done, I stopped believing love was real, I even stopped believing in God, parties became my church. I became bitter. I hated everyone, specially guys. I hated girls almost how much I hated boys for being supid. I hated people that are in love, I said watch one day they'll end up crying to me and I will just laugh at them because I have warned them. I witnessed love fail, die. Every marriage I seem to have known was a failure including my parents, my sister, and other family members or if they were not divorced they seemed to be unhappy. So I told myself that I will not be in that same position. I was beautiful, successful, and heartless.
Till the day I met the guy that changed everything. I met him through the weirdest place on earth. Myspace. Yes, myspace.
But the moment I have spoke to him I knew something was different. He emailed me saying "Hi my name is John. It seems you don't have faith in guys." After that one email, messages were back and forth like crazy. It was magical. It was almost like God spoke to me saying "Son, your suffering is over." That I need to come back in believing. From that moment on, I automatically did.
This guy lives 30 minutes away from me. Not that far, but we took our time to get to know each other enough on the net. We had legitimate conversations, myspace profiles, and pictures. We weren't fakes. I have to say we're both good looking, beautiful people that had real myspace pictures. The night came when we met up, at my house, LOL and then BAM! We clicked like a camera when it flashes. Its amazing.
Its already been almost a year since that day and things have gotten better and better. Don't worry though because we are just like any other relationships, we go through phases, we fight, we get irritated, we go through crap, we've been through hard s*** and I mean hard but listen to your heart, to your intuition, I did, I do specially on hard times and all I can hear is "yo, yo, yo! your love is real for him, so as his, don't let this s*** life turn you down." I just know in my heart, I really know its him, Im gonna be with this man every waking moment of my life. I am willingly wanting to. This world can throw crap at us but guess what it's worth fighting for because there's real love and real love doesn't happen all the time.
Let me give you a little insight about him, he is a normal guy with a normal heart that wants to see love not fail, a man that has been through a lot of heartache, once loved and hurt, have hurt other people, have made mistakes in life, a man that needed to know there is hope out there, there is love out there that is for you, just for you and no one elses. A man that is just like me, that is why I could say and I know he is my other half.
We relate, our beliefs, hobbies (writing poems, drinking beer), music, life experiences, feelings, personality (lowkey nerd, highkey sexy JK), we could be bad but we are really good people and its very important that you meet someone that is experienced in love, that has gotten through crap in this life because they are more likely to appreciate life and love. But don't forget even when youre inlove, life will not stop throwing s*** at you, so be prepared.
You might not even read this because its as long as your moms chore list but thank you for asking, I got to write down my real feelings and it reminded me of how blessed I am no matter what I have gotten through.
Listen to Miracle by Paramore. My favorite. Thats basically what I feel for him.
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